Wow. I have some nerve, don’t I? Disappear for a gazillion years and then just show back up all “waddup friends?” Allow me to explain, and then feel free to throw the stones.
To say that life has been a bit tumultuous and totally not on board with the “Mindy has everything in control” plan is a huge understatement. Just when I thought I’d ironed out all the details, dotted the “I’s” and crossed the “T’s”, a curve ball came flying through the air and smacked me dab in the middle of the forehead.
And boy did it leave a mark.
I have found myself and my family in a position for which no amount of preparedness, planning, overthinking or reasoning will suffice.
After 16 years with a document legally binding our two lives, my husband is choosing a different path and here I find myself staring down a future that bears no resemblance to the original plan.
Deciding to write about this has been a soul searching endeavor and one I’m still a little uncertain over. Although our story is changing Jeremy and I will always be bound by the very best thing we ever did together, parenting our two smart, beautiful, kind children. I, in no way, have any intention of sharing details that don’t matter to the point at hand. Marriage and all of its intricacies is a manner of work that I have yet to find perfected and I know that not one of us has a solid answer to the age-old question of long term survival. So I’m not even going to try and figure that out here.
But what I feel I do have some certainty about is my desire to share my journey from Wife to Woman. The life I have known for a decade-and-a-half is changing. And with any change comes growth and finding that stronger version of yourself hidden deep within the recesses of your biggest fears. Admittedly, this journey is not of my choosing but it’s one that I will embark upon with the same passion and devotion I gave my last adventure.
As I move forward in discovering my new place in this world I hope that my decision to share is met with prayer, support and understanding. I am truly a believer that God will work all things for good and I have no doubt that my faith in Christ and His plan will move me past the pain of my present and the uncertainty of my future into a contented place of acceptance.